Runner’s Diary

Look at it from the ends perspective….

Sitting here eating dinner the night before one of the toughest races I am going to run is not something that I want to be thinking about. All I kept thinking throughout the day was, I don’t want to race tomorrow, who cares what I eat today, I just want this race season to be done and over with, I just want to get back into Adrenaline and the gym…

My Mom then walked through the door and asked, “What do you want me to pack for you for breakfast in the morning?” First thing that came out was, “I don’t want to go, I don’t care,” and then I just broke out in tears. I’ve had enough. The time and effort that I have put forth this season has been better than ever, but it’s finally hitting me. Getting no time to spend with friends and being off my regular sleep schedule because I’m at school all day then go right to Malden for practice, and then home for homework until bed time has finally got to me.

Later when I settled down and thought about it, I realized, I’ve put forth two and a half hard months of training, next weekend is when it all determines if I will running Canada wide or not, I can’t stop now. Danielle’s voice that I always hear during workouts is all I could hear in the back of my head, “just one more, you can do it, mind over matter!” (That’s what gets me through races as well!) I counted the days I had left, and told myself, only 29 more days left until I can take a week off and do nothing at all, I can do that.

When things get tough in life, you need to think of the success that it will bring to you at the end. During the hard times isn’t what matters, it’s the outcome that makes you feel like a winner. For me, being a runner, and as fellow runners would agree too I am sure, when running, you don’t always want to finish what you started; but when you think of the end result and that’s what gets you through it.